considering reapplying to vol department
So long story, short: I was 5 months into my probation as an emt on a volunteer department when I quit about 3 years ago. At the time I had tons of personal crap going on. Had just moved in with someone who would get "sick" on crew nights, and beg me to take care of her (pssh - my bad decisions) - nixed her, now engaged to a fully supportive fiance who is encouraging me in this. No job at the time, so therefore money issues - now going on my 3rd year with my company. I got hired right before quiting, which messed up my schedule a great deal. Found out several months after quiting that I have a medical condition where if untreated I get loopy, less alert. The fast pace of things happening on calls, blew past me and I felt completely inadequate. During a training night where we had to run codes, I was off in a whole another land. I should have known that it was a medical issue but it was a progressive thing where my thyroid levels were out of whack, climaxing with getting in a car accident. Fun stuff. I regulate my levels now with a gluten-free diet, and medication when needed.
I guess this was a short story, long. Basically, my life hit the s*** fan. Not trying to make excuses, just attempting to be thorough.
Before quitting I got pretty flaky, skipping out nights trainings and an event. Also, I resigned via email to never be heard from again. The chief sent me an email asking me to reconsider but I never responded. Pretty bad, I know - I still regret these things.
I guess my question is this...
Would it be a waste of time to reapply? According to an administrator, I am eligible to apply - however, I don't want to waste their time. I've considered emailing the chief to ask candidly if I would be seriously considered but I just don't know if it would be absolutely ridiculous to try.
I miss answering the calls. Back then I was interested in it as a career, but right now mostly interested in spending my free time doing something for the community.