Getting back in the game.
Hey guys i've been tossing this idea of getting back into the fire service around for a little now. I started volunteering when I was 19 and was hired as a full time FF/EMT in the SouthWest when I was 21 and finished my Fire degree. I successfully passed probation (I actually really enjoyed the challenges of it) and was looking forward to my career in the fire service and retiring at age 46..jk ;)
Long story short for two months at the end of my probation I worked a LOT of codes and had put in around 700 hrs of OT that year. So yeah I was a bit stressed and family and old friends were 2k miles away. I worked a code on a younger person this January that really shook me up and it was probably the 4th one I did that week. This was a little too much for me to handle so my station crew and I went to a CISD where the guy told me horror stories about children dying and how it was possible for me to start hearing voices and that I was in the wrong career field (he has been banned now). So I went on med leave until I ran out of vacation and I turned it in. This was in January.
I have been working on myself and working out of getting out of that depressive episode that lasted a few months.
The question is how would I go about getting back into the fire service? I assume start volunteering to see how I handle it but i'm not sure if they would even let me or consider me a liability. I worked on a contract hand crew this summer doing wildfires which was fun but damn I miss being with the guys and making a difference.