where to focus the energy
We got called on a DOA accident last night - first in a couple of years. I'm not sure about you, but where I'm at everyone knows everyone. It was one of my friend's sons, 20 years old. Actually, almost all of the guys knew him and his family. I thought I was doing better this morning after I got an hour of sleep, but I'm not feeling so sure about myself now. We talked this morning before leaving the station about a debriefing, but I'm not sure if it has been scheduled. Must not be very important - some of them are getting together tonight to play poker.
I'm strong and mature enough to realize what I'm doing...blaming the guys for their inadequacies and not dealing with the motions and moving on. But I'm stuck on something. I know they'd cover me in a second and keep me safe. But when it comes down to an emotional situation like this, why do they back away from me and hold tight to the other guys? Why do the guys huddle together and scatter when they see old teary eyes coming their way? Is it the whole macho/weakness thing? I wasn't the only one with leaky eyes either. So what's the problem?